When ‘Teen Mom’ Star Farrah Abraham Confessed That Doing Drugs Gave Her a 'Blurred Double Vision'

In 2012, Teen Mom sensation, Farrah Abraham, opened up about a tumultuous chapter in her life in a startling confession, revealing how her struggle with drugs made her have "blurred double vision." Farrah recounts her dark days before fame, exposing the raw reality of her adolescent years marred by substance abuse. 

Farrah discussed her autobiography, My Teenage Dream Ended in an OK! Magazine interview which was published on August 20, 2012. It revealed her wild side, which included an inclination toward booze, marijuana, and cocaine. The autobiography reveals instances of risky behavior, such as a vivid recollection of a bonfire party where excessive drinking resulted in double vision and a night of indulgence with a stranger.

"I drank way too much, so much that I had blurred double vision," Abraham said. “I found myself in a truck, making out with some boy and calling him Derek. He was going below the belt and I started yelling, ‘Let’s have sex!’… I don’t even remember getting home that night.”

Abraham's on-again, off-again relationship with Derek Underwood is also mentioned as a driving force behind her substance abuse. During their turbulent times, her coping mechanism included binge drinking and engaging in reckless behavior to either forget Derek or make him jealous.

Abraham's turbulent journey continued when she became pregnant with her daughter Sophia at the age of 16. The difficulties increased when her boyfriend and child's father, Underwood, was killed in a car accident. Following these heartbreaking events, Abraham struggled with depression, seeking solace in the numbness brought by substance abuse. According to the interview with In Touch, her lowest point came two years after Sophia's birth, when she openly admitted to using cocaine and marijuana, as reported by Today.

"When I drank, I'd be happy for 10 minutes," Abraham told In Touch. "When I got high, I'd feel a sense of nothingness for about an hour. But in the end, my negative emotions always came rushing back."

Abraham openly admitted to considering suicide at the height of her despair. "All I could think about was killing myself," she said. "I figured I would drown myself in the bathtub -- that seemed like the easiest way to go." Abraham also revealed that in the note she considered writing to Sophia, she'd explain, "I pictured telling her that I missed her daddy."

Abraham revealed that she was adamant about being the best mother she could be. She revealed her clinical depression diagnosis in the interview, emphasizing that she was undergoing medication and therapy sessions to regain control of her emotions. She emphasized the critical importance of Sophia's well-being, saying, "The most crucial thing is to make sure she's well taken care of. How can I achieve that if I'm no longer here?"

Editor's note: This article was originally published on December 9, 2023. It has since been updated.