Rory Feek never fails to make us cry.
After his wife Joey passed away two months ago, Rory has avoided too much notice by the pubic, according to People. But now, in light of the first Mother's Day without Joey, Rory has posted on his blog in honor of her memory on this bittersweet day.
"I can't tell you I was a great father. I tried," Rory said. "I think was a good father, but the truth is I was still a young man struggling to find myself, while the girls were growing and finding out who they were. I made so many mistakes and was so selfish. At times I was more concerned about being a great songwriter than being a great father. In a lot of ways, I think the girls raised me while I was raising them. But they were so forgiving and loved me unconditionally. They still do."Rory has always been an outspoken romantic. Just this past Valentine's Day, The Inquisitr reported that he organized a meaningful and memorable surprise for Joey. Even during her bed ridden months, Joey cared only about her family--about Rory, their daughter Indiana and her two step-daughters.
"When Joey and I found out that the treatments weren't working and that more-than-likely, she wasn't going to live to see another spring... Joey sat beside me on a glider on our back deck and cried and cried," Joey wrote.
"But not because of the news that the cancer had spread and there was nothing more the doctors could do. She cried because Indy was going to lose her mama, and I was going to be a single father again."Joey was worried that Rory would once again be alone without a wife because she "knew how hard it had been for [them] for all those years before she came along and she was upset that she was going to leave [Rory] in the same situation."
"For years after Joey and I got married, I dreamed that God might bless her and me with a baby. A baby that we could love and cherish and raise together. A child that was part her, part me, and all Him. And part of that dream was that I might be given a second chance at being a father. [...] I [realize now] that God knew what was in store and all those years by myself with the girls was Him preparing me for the job of caring for Indiana."Although Rory misses Joey dearly, he still feels her presence daily--through her music, her memory, her legacy and their daughters.
"Though my beautiful wife sleeps in a bed of clover behind our farmhouse, we still celebrate her on this special day and lift her up and give her flowers. This is not my day. It is hers. Joey loved being a mother more than anything else in the world. And she is still Indy's mama. And Heidi's and Hopie's.""I'd say it brings me a lot of peace. I listen and watch everything – it's part of the process for me. I don't want to hide from her, or her memory, or those feelings," Rory said to Billboard after Rory passed away. "Every morning about 5:30, Indiana and I get up, and quite often I play her the Hymns record … Hearing the music, she's still alive."One of Rory's notable trademarks as a man, as a father and as a musician is his faith--which he says has pulled him through all of the trials of life.
"Just because things don't work out the way that you hoped they would, doesn't mean that God isn't still in charge," he told Billboard earlier this week. "It's still his plans and not ours, so I don't feel like my faith has wavered at all."
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