Kissing Emma Watson Made Rupert Grint Miserable: ‘Harry Potter’ Star Talks Hermione And Ron’s Horrible Kiss

Rupert Grint actually got paid to kiss Emma Watson in a Harry Potter movie, which probably seems like an opportunity worth all the gold in Gringotts to the many fans who harbor crushes on Hermione. However, Rupert recently revealed that he didn’t enjoy locking lips with Emma at all. In fact, he was so traumatized by Hermione and Ron’s kissing scene in Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, Part 2 that he doesn’t even remember it.

According to People, Rupert Grint was one of the Harry Potter stars who attended Universal Orlando’s three-day celebration of Harry Potter event over the weekend. Emma Watson wasn’t in attendance, so Rupert was able to talk about their kissing scene without having to worry about how his costar would react to his words—Emma probably would have been creeped out and uncomfortable if Rupert had said that he really enjoyed kissing her, but his true feelings about their shared smooch aren’t much better. According to the actor, kissing Emma Watson made him downright miserable.

“I never look back at that scene,” Rupert said. “I’ve known Emma since she was literally 9-years-old and we had this very brother-sister relationship.”

“It just felt very surreal. I have a memory of her face getting closer and closer. Like, ‘Oh my God.’ I can’t really remember anything apart from that.”

Rupert Grint revealed that he and Emma Watson were under a lot of pressure to get the kissing scene right, which likely just compounded his misery. Rupert seemed pretty relieved that he and Emma were able to get it done in just one take.

“One take was enough. It was such a huge moment and there was so much expectation. Quite a lot of pressure actually.”

However, this isn’t what Rupert Grint said a few years ago. During a 2011 interview with MTV News, the actor said that he and Emma Watson did “about four” takes of the kiss before director David Yates was satisfied with their spit swapping. Maybe he’s telling the truth when he says that he can’t remember exactly how the kiss went down.

“It was a tricky one, because it had to be believable,” Grint said. “We had to look like we wanted to do it, when in reality we really didn’t. We were soaking [in the scene], and that kind of made it a little bit easier, I think, because it was kind of this outburst of adrenaline.”

The kissing scene in Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows, Part 2 takes place in the Chamber of Secrets right after Ron and Hermione use a basilisk fang to destroy one of Voldemort’s horcruxes, Helga Hufflepuff’s cup. This causes a large wave of water to rush into the room, and Ron and Hermione share a passionate kiss after they survive the ordeal.

Emma and Rupert have talked about the kissing scene quite a bit over the years, and both stars have had very few positive things to say about their smooch. During a 2009 interview with MTV News, Emma Watson described it as “awkward.” She also said that she had no idea what to do—she wasn’t sure if she needed to use tongue or not to get the desired effect.

“I was like, ‘Do I use tongue?'” Emma said. “‘Do I not use tongue? Do I cover my teeth? What do I do? Do I go first? Oh my God!'”

Emma revealed that she “ended up pouncing on Rupert” like Crookshanks the cat going after Scabbers the rat, and she apologized to her costar for taking him by surprise. According to Moviepilot, Emma Watson once described the kiss as the “most horrible thing” she’s ever had to do, and she said that it “felt like incest.”

The kissing scene sounds like a pretty horrible experience all around, but Emma Watson did attempt to reassure fans that it wasn’t like being under the Cruciatus curse. Misery loves company, and Emma said that she took comfort in knowing that Rupert hated filming the scene just as much as she did. The Harry Potter co-stars were even able to laugh at the extremely high level of discomfort that they shared while shooting the scene.

“We were both just like, ‘Oh my God, I can’t believe we have to do this. This is so awkward. Really awkward.’ So I could take comfort in the fact that Rupert felt the same way,” Emma said. “We were both giggling. We were like 12-year-olds. We were like giggling children where you just couldn’t keep it together.”

I want someone to look at me like Ron looks Hermione. pic.twitter.com/yKXrB95iRv

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According to Rupert Grint, the worst part of the kiss for him was having to look at Emma Watson for a moment after their awkward lip lock. Meanwhile, Hermione the perfectionist couldn’t help but worry over whether she did it right.

Do you think Emma Watson and Rupert Grint did a good job hiding their discomfort in the kissing scene below?

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