Kris Jenner Regrets Not Helping Nicole, 20 Years After Suicidal OJ Simpson Hid At Her Ex’s House

On June 17, 1994, Robert Kardashian found his friend, OJ Simpson, in his daughter Kim’s bedroom. OJ was clutching a gun and pictures of his kids, Justin and Sydney, and wife Nicole Brown Simpson.

OJ told Kardashian, “I’m gonna kill myself in this room,” The New York Daily News reported.

In the hours before that famous police chase in the white Bronco — made while OJ held a gun to his own head — Simpson found shelter at the Kardashian house. Kim was there that week; then 14, she was staying with her father when Nicole and Ronald Goldman were stabbed to death, Radar Online added.

When Robert found him, Simpson had been recording “a suicide tape” in the room. The tape was played on television in 1996, but it has only now been revealed that OJ recorded them in Kim’s bedroom. In the tapes, he confessed to being lonely but trying to keep up appearances.

“Please remember me as a good guy. Don’t remember me as one of the negatives that might end up here. Please, please, please, please leave my kids at peace. I love everybody … Everybody loved me but I don’t know why. Things in my life just caught up to me.”

Robert, who was ultimately a member of his friend’s defense team, talked Simpson out of suicide.

“You can’t. This is my daughter’s bedroom — my little girl Kim sleeps here,” he said. “I can’t have my little girl in this bedroom, and every time I come in here, I’m going to see your body lying in this. You can’t do that.'”

It has been 20 years since OJ Simpson was acquitted of the murders of his wife and Goldman, a waiter and aspiring model who just happened to be at the wrong place at the wrong time. One person seemed to have seen Nicole’s brutal death coming, and in the decades since, harbors guilt for not doing something.

That person is Kris Jenner, who divorced Kardashian in 1989, People reported.

“I will always feel guilty that I didn’t pay more attention and didn’t speak up when I thought anything was wrong or asked her more, ‘Do you want to talk about it?’ The one thing she would tell all of us by the time, you know, it got to that level was, ‘He’s going to kill me and he’s going to get away with it.'”

As far as Ron Goldman’s sister, Kim, is concerned, OJ did get away with it. Since her brother’s death, she’s written two books. The second, just released and called Media Circus, isn’t about her family or her brother’s death, but how families who’ve been the victim of similar tragedies get through their grief amid the public attention, KABC reported.

Her experiences, she said, helped her “elicit honesty” from the families featured in her book.

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Years after hearing the verdict read at OJ Simpson’s trial, Goldman still hasn’t gotten over it. She told KABC she had a hard time even walking into the courtroom that day, but the district attorney’s investigator pushed her forward, reminding her of her strength.

After she heard the first not guilty verdict, she thought OJ would still be convicted in her brother’s death. But Simpson was acquitted of that charge, too. All Kim said she remembered was her heart “thumping so loudly that I thought it was going to pop out of my chest.”

“Obviously again we know what that was, and I just couldn’t believe it. I felt shock and despair and betrayal, and Judge Ito told everybody to quiet down and tried to get control of the courtroom,” she recalled. “We just got up and walked out.”

Goldman isn’t the only one who harbors regrets Last week, she met with one of the juror’s in Simpson’s trial, a woman named Yoland Crawford, who upon meeting Kim, apologized for not giving her “what you were looking for.” Ever since Simpson’s verdict was read, she said she’s had doubts about the decision.

“I don’t know of his innocence, I’m not sure about that I’ve always had some doubt,” she shared. “There was evidence that was put in the civil trial that we weren’t privy to during the criminal trial.”

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