Holly Madison’s Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny is the most detailed of all testimonials about life behind the gates of the Playboy Mansion.
Now 35 and married to Jack Barakat, a member of the All Time Low band, Holly Madison says in her memoir that life as a Playboy Bunny is not as glamorous as most people think, and that most of the girls are just “empty inside” and just going through the motions, according to a report by People .
Holly Madison also notes that she came to learn that Hef was a manipulator, pitting the girls against each other.
“I realized I wasn’t treated well. I’m done being afraid of people. I don’t have any loyalty to Hef. I haven’t talked to him in four years, so there’s no reason to reach out now. Besides, it’s the truth.”
This is according to an excerpt on Us Magazine .
When Holly Madison finally made the decision to move out of the mansion, she says Hugh tried to offer her a place in his will to keep her from going.
“It was there, in black and white… The will stated that $3,000,000 would be bestowed to Holly Madison at the time of his death (provided I still lived in the Mansion). At the time, it was more money than I’d ever know what to do with… But I didn’t want it. I actually pitied him for stooping to that level. I couldn’t help but be offended. Did he really think he could buy me?”
However, Holly Madison has recently had beef with Kendra after she told a tabloid that she wasn’t friends with either Holy or Bridget Marquardt, her former housemates. According to E! Online’s report on the issue, Holly Madison said the following about her former colleague.
“Of course I wasn’t going to stoop to her level and address this only on social media, so I decided to text her how I truly felt: that she was a coward and that she tried to act like the ‘real’ girl on TV, but she’s the fakest person I’ve ever met—and that if she had a problem with me, she should have confronted me like an adult instead of just going silent.”
Madison adds that afterward, she deleted Kendra’s phone number and hasn’t talked to her since.
According to People , Holly Madison reveals in her memoir that prior to becoming a playmate, Kendra reportedly lied to Hefner about working as a stripper because she knew he didn’t like strippers.
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