Holly Madison said she considered suicide during her time at the Playboy Mansion, a revelation that is shedding light on the not-so-glamorous side of the Playboy lifestyle and the others who have ended their lives because of it.
Madison is set to reveal many details about her time as one of Hugh Hefner’s girlfriends, with the tell-all Down the Rabbit Hole delving into her dark times .
“Life inside the notorious Mansion wasn’t a dream at all — and quickly became her nightmare,” promotional material for the book states. “After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub contemplating suicide.”
Details of what will be included have not been released, but the publisher promised the tell-all book will detail the “oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and [her] battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies.”
Holly Madison is not the first Playboy model to reveal some sordid details about life in the mansion — and not the first to contemplate suicide. Former model Paige Young was the Playboy Playmate of the Month in November 1968, but later fell victim to some powerful men who sources say preyed on the young woman.
Young reportedly caught the attention of Bill Cosby, who led Young into an abusive and controlling relationship.
“Paige always seemed in a stupor, a daze, like he was controlling her. All I remember is that their relationship wasn’t healthy,” says Tamara Green, who has also accused Cosby of assault.
Fed up with being “passed around” to powerful men, Paige Young ultimately took her own life with a single gunshot to the head.
Friend and former model Melanie Myers found Young’s body and said that Paige had revealed before the suicide that she felt trapped in the Playboy life.
The Daily Mail continued as follows.
“Myers added: ‘I remember her showing me around it because it was somehow important, but I didn’t know what it meant.’
But it was the bedroom wall that shocked Myers the most.
‘It was covered floor to ceiling with photos of Hugh Hefner,’ she said.
‘There were news clippings, magazine articles, everything you could think of. Written across it was something like: “Hugh Hefner is the devil”.
‘The whole wall was a shrine saying, ‘I hate Hugh Hefner,’ the crux of her anger was against him.”
Other Playboy models have died under similar circumstances. Cheryl Kubert, who was the magazine’s Playmate of the Month for the February 1958, died in 1989 of a suspected suicide. Earlier this year, former Playmate Cassandra Lynn was found dead of a possible overdose. However, it was not determined if it was suicide or an accident.
Holly Madison did not discuss her suicide plans in detail, but Down the Rabbit Hole promises to fill in the details.
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